classics

we grow up thinking love stories have to be tragic.
one person ends up alone, or unrequited love is so romantic.
they lived a normal standard life where love had peaks and dips doesn't sell as many copies i suppose.

then there are the incredible men of America's past.

John Kennedy
well the whole Kennedy family
Martin Luther King
pretty much every president
religious leaders

they all had affairs. countless affairs. and all their wives stayed. because its what was expected.

then there is the religious guilt. GOD forbid you're in a love-less marriage. if you have kids you stay. anything else is selfish. and not sanctioned by the big guy.  big guy. women are the downfall of society right? the curse of eve and all that. even if you are showing your kids that love is not the most important. at least your showing them eternal commitment! forever and ever.

then there is the Love we experience. the kind that stops your heart and brings moisture to your eyes when your remember. it seems to be that everyone has that particular memory. that one that got away.

why is it that we don't tend to end up with the ones that shake our entire world?  maybe you're not supposed to be with your greatest love. maybe its too much. too much passion. too much hate. too much love. too much longing. maybe one is supposed to be just content...not titillated on the edge of one's seat for life.

maybe it doesn't have to be "I'll never let go"  or tragic dual suicides. maybe we can just be. and see what happens.

this is now

Im done with thinking that my life's love story has to end in pain, or with a half version of myself.  This is the part of me that no one is ever gonna ever take away from me...

now look at me im sparkling.